11:54 Chicago time.

So lets imagine for a second that i know that God is with me at all times but with me being human am still scared and cant sleep. Well im there. In less then twelve hours i will get up infront highly trained musicians play two songs that i feel are the best representation of my skill and then see what they have to say. This is not me wanting sympathy just me addressing my fears. for those of you that have kept me in your prayers I thank you from the bottom of my heart. Overall my Savior is in control and He will light my path. All im left to say is MY GOD REIGNS!!!!!

 Amen

Youth?

So for those of you that don't know my minor in college will be youth ministries. I love working with youth I really do and cant wait to be a youth pastor but until then I do what I can. Today at work I realized something that is over taking my generation and it frustrates me to no end. I realized that doing drugs and such is the thing the "cool kids" do. To be honest ( im in no way perfect and struggle with allot things) this has to change. Because the emptiness that I can hear in there voices cries out to me saying " if I knew God". That is a hard thing to explain when the world is full of hate and anger and destruction. I just get so frustrated when people say that the only way a marriage will work is if you have sex before you get married. This should be a generation that praises God in a new way not take a step back. I have seen with my own eyes a building full of youth completely lost in worship and its the most amazing thing. So in a way this is a challenge to all who read. Who are you praying for? The enemy has a powerful foot hold right now so please pray leaders amongst all youth pray constantly and seek diligently to find God on your own in a new way. We can't change the world but we can help to make our community a place where God is reflected in our eyes.

inspiration?/

So recently I've been lacking inspiration for my music. I also have noticed that even when I feel like I've hit on something it just doesn't come out the way I intend it to. So I have found that going into Gods word brings inspiration and relief.  So what am I trying to say? Well even when you feel that you cant get thru life the bible will offer the most comfort. 

February 27th 10:50am

In roughly three weeks I will audition for acceptance to the North Park university's  music program and I am beginning to feel extremely uneasy. Although I feel that I am ready for my audition I still have a sense of restlessness. Some of this I attribute to me feeling less competent on guitar because I have been struggling to finish several songs. The rest I would have to attribute to the fact that if I fail at this I will have to wait one whole year to gain acceptance to the music program. On a final note I would be grateful for prayer from anyone who reads this.

Worship

What is worship? For me worship is me giving back to God all that I have and using the talent he has given me to praise and honor He who has loved me thru and thru. Im writing this because i have heard from so many youth that the heart of worship and the sr high retreats is where they find themselves lost in worship. I firmly believe that this generation, my generation needs times such as these to reset and find what worship is really all about. Worship in closing isn't just us singing and dancing but His people losing themselves in a ocean of grace and mercy It's a place where we never want to leave. Unfortunately I was unable to attend the last Heart of Worship but I heard from several youth and karios students that it was the best time they had ever had and that the worship wether it was the singing or the prayer or even the silence it was unforgettable and that is my prayer for this generation. that we will never forget what worship means.